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So much confusion in my thoughts I don't know where to start that's why I lay it down and express through this lyrical art I let out this never ending pain that's in my heart 

I try to speak but no one is listening can't say what I'm feeling cuz of what they might think of me can't you see? I just wanna be free  but the piles of burdens are beginning to crush me both physically and emotionally a little much for a 17 year old wouldn't you agree 

What happened to my decision this is my life if I'm not an RM then I guess I'm not her type when all my thoughts of her later being my wife it kinda hurts so I turn to this pocket knife

but now im Sittin here on this cold wet pavement contemplatin trying to let my brain vent I think of all this time spent pissin my life away how could I not realize it til this day. What's wrong with me how could I not see so obviously this evil growing inside of me,and now I'm looking at that rope on the tree thinking it might be time to let my feet swing, 

       I close my eyes go to sleep and spend my night on the street cant let it repeat i lay my fist in the concrete cant take the heat this life is a boulder on my shoulder they say trials like these only make you stronger well what if  i cant take it any longer but instead of breaking i bend To shel Silverstein this is where my sidewalk ends and where a new one begins

Seattle is my Paris

Seattle where I'll lay my feet down, walking through the streets while the rain hits the ground it's not Paris but it is for the artist of underground call it creative writing cuz that's original sound and from century link stadium with their roaring crowd the 12th man, the heart and soul of that town like a small earthquake when the Seahawks get a touchdown the city is a symphony I'd give anything to be part of that sound

This is my journey

People try to tell me what I should feel bad about, but where do these ideas of right and wrong come from, if I should feel bad about it then why don't i? You try to tell me my life is the one that is struggling last time I checked it has been pretty enjoyable, youre the one that feels like you need to "fix" everyone else's because for some reason you think yours is better than theirs if I don't live up to your expectations I'm sorry but on this pathway to where I will eventually find myself I will look back and say I'm proud I made it because that was no easy hike and those tall cliffs and those loose rocks are what built me

Love

Love is inevitable, you can't avoid it. Whether it's something or somebody, you will feel it, and you will know, because love is beautiful and why would the universe keep you from something like love? It wouldn't, it shouldn't, and if you think it is, it's only a matter of time before you find it.

Light at the end of the tunnel

Funny how it happens the world comes crashing down around you and you're trapped in blackness, you see something you want and you grab it at the time that's what you want but now you're finally figuring out that what you want isn't really what you're seeing then youre lost and all alone screaming cuz your world is so dark you can't even find yourself you think you're so far gone from battling these demons but in reality you're just a few steps away from better days

I promise I'm not a robot

I give it all I have to offer, nothin but the best, I know I'm not a robot cuz of the beating heart inside of my chest, I feel the warm sun hear the birds in their nest, let all of my worries go and started thinking bout the rest now I realize that I am truly blessed, to be who I am, love bein myself took a look at the old me left him sittin on the shelf, cuz I don't wanna be anybody else

If there is plenty of fish in the sea, then why the hell can't I catch any!?

To the person who told me when I was too old for childish things, suck it! I got my crayons back.